Life sails best, it would seem, on a ballast of dreams.

After watching The Internet’s Own Boy, I would like to say something about countering the toll that fighting for freedom can take — in the context of cryptocurrency and blockchain technology.

I am a relative newcomer to the space. I did not acquire my first coins until about a year ago. I started with ether. Bitcoin seemed too expensive — not to mention cumbersome — and I only purchased my first bitcoins the following month.

Meanwhile, I braved the inaugural Ethereal Summit in Brooklyn, and then the Consensus convention over in Manhattan. Connecting with others who shared such passion invigorated me — but I also headed into the summer overwhelmed, and depleted.

It helped / did not help that I was simultaneously battling a depressive episode I found myself unprepared for. This one — precipitated by just one too many rejections from a man because I am transsexual — became the wisp of a straw that broke the camel’s back…

…and tore open a black hole in my little universe.

I did not think I would make it.

I started making plans.

I sank further and further.

At the nadir of the abyss, however, I struck a bargain with myself: just one more year.

What if, each morning, I write down at least one experience from the day before that I would have missed if I had been dead. For one year:

Aaron Swartz’s Guerilla Open Access Manifesto spoke to me so profoundly, I suspect, because it pulses with the hope I feel from crypto: that, despite the daunting, seemingly insurmountable odds, We The People might stand up to the Powers That Be.

Going toe-to-toe with the most powerful adversary in the world — the government of the United States of America — has comprised the bulk of my very empowering, mightily humbling law practice (federal criminal defense, predominantly, until crypto) for almost a dozen years now.

Whether I personally gravitate into the struggle for openness, transparency and accountability because of how I’m made, or whether I strive to become the person I want because of what I have seen and learned in my life and work, well, it’s a chicken-or-egg-first question.

My point is simply this, and no more or any less: the sense of purpose inherent in the Crypto Revolution shall be what I continue to throw my heart and soul into — and to focus my career on — for the foreseeable future.

See, there was a flash each time I jumped off the Bridge To Nowhere when I let everything go and gave in to trust — or was it faith? — that the rebound would catch me…

…and that each bounce back up would imbue my brain with resplendence.

Transform me a little.

Going up against The Establishment feels just like that instant… so ruthlessly thrusting us to face ourselves alone… but only to discover that jettisoning every pretense of control was the way to achieve the autonomy we sought: belief in one another and the world arising.

XO

Lawyer and stuff. I like to create things and jump out of airplanes.